RIP my Youtube channel and Book List for (the rest of) 2022
Youtube, we're done. I quit. It's over.
I'm only bringing this up because I said I'd upload a book haul for the first half of 2022. I did film it. I just couldn't bring myself to post it. I just couldn't see the point of it anymore. So here's the story:
About five or six years ago I started a Youtube channel initially because I wanted to make speedart/painting videos. In the last videos I had also started to branch out with book reviews, small book hauls, and once tried to vlog (which was a major FAIL). In the years that I have been making videos I have gone between being dedicated and disheartened and then hopeful and trying again, only with the same result over and over. No matter how hard I worked, I never saw any growth, never got any feedback. It got to the point where I realized it was doing nothing but stressing me out. Not to mention the technical problems I started running into which I already mentioned on my goodreads blog.
I really did enjoy making videos in the beginning. But now, all my joy for it is just dead. It ruined my time after I'd make a video. I'd keep checking it hoping for views/feedback, and it would put me in an awful mood every time my videos died on the vine. It's not worth it. No point in continuing, enough is enough. I will still leave the channel up, but I have already deleted all my videos and I won't be posting any for a long time. That said, I may be (eventually) making videos again as they relate to my stories/novels, but no Youtube again. In fact, the more I think about it the more I realize I no longer like making videos anymore.
Anyway, the bottom line here I guess is I don't know what I kept getting wrong but I just couldn't make it work. Some things are just not meant to be, I guess. So, RIP, my channel.
What I'm currently reading:
Shogun by James Clavell
And, after a year and a half, today I finally finished reading the Bible.
Now for the much less interesting BOOK HAUL I promised, filmed twice, then decided not to post:
(these books are next on my reading list and will be read in no particular order hopefully by the end of the year)
The Leper's Companions Julia Blackburn
Song of Kings Barry Unsworth
Golden Son Pierce Brown
Streets of Laredo Larry McMurty
Abandoned W Michael Gear
A Six Novel Collection (not the official name but I didn’t know what else to call it) by HG Wells
Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep (AKA Blade Runner) Philip K Dick
Breaker of Empires: Richard Baker
1. Valiant Dust
2. Restless Lightning
The Rise of Endymion Dan Simmons
Retribution Rails Erin Bowman
Vanguard Ann Aguire
Cleopatra's Daughter Michelle Moran
The Pharaoh's Daughter Mesu Andrews (2nd reading)
The Raven King Maggie Stiefvater
Tandem and Tether Anna Jarzab
Madame Bovary Gustave Flaubert
Fragment Warren Fahy
The Gauntlet Megan Shephard
Skinner Luce Partricia Ward
The Return of the King JRR Tolkien
The Damascus Road Jay Parini
The Andromeda Evolution Michael Chricton/ Daniel H Wilson
Out of Due Season Benjamin X Wretlind
Dead Soul Michael R Hicks
Shadow and Rose Amanda DeWees
Tales of Talon Book 2 and 3 A.A. Warren
Leviathan Wakes James S.A. Corey
The Night Country Melissa Albert
The Woman in the Green Dress Tea Cooper
We Rule the Night Claire Eliza Bartlett
Kingdom of the Blazing Phoenix Julie C. Dao
